i think its the first and second time he's seriously made me cry
               I'm starting to wish i hadn't worn such dark eyeliner today...

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[[new xanga]] <-- ask.

...5 days and im gonna cry all night...

                  Armor For Sleep

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michelle's brother makes my heart do flip-flops.

i passed out today for the first time.

we were at the nursing home for career center

i was holding ice on ernie's head, he fell and hit his head.

i got really hot all of a sudden

told laura i needed to get out of there and had her hold the ice

head was pounding

walked out into the hallway

was too dizzy to remember which way was outside

i held onto the rail

sarah and amy were walking down the hall

i asked them to walk me outside

took about 5 steps

felt like i was gonna puke

grabbed sarah's arm

and that's the last i remember

sarah said i collapsed and she was holding me up; i was bent over her arm

her and amy were yelling for help

i dont know how long i was out like that

i remember thinking to myself "why am i spinning? and why are my ears ringing?"

i couldn't hear anything (couldn't hear them talking to me)
i couldn't feel anything (couldn't feel sarah holding me up or the ground under me)

i felt like i was floating

i felt like i was spinning in circles around a bat

i wasn't scared though, i know that...

i was actually kind of mad that i came out of it when mrs emling and a nurse made me sit down on the ground

i realized what had happened

i wasn't hurting or anything, just dizzy

i started to cry and mrs emling just rubbed my back and had ice on my neck and a washcloth on my forehead that sarah and amy got

i got some water from them too

then mrs emling was talking to me and i responded in short sentences

and sarah and amy found me a wheelchair and they brought me to the cafeteria

i got crackers and koolaid and a yucky sandwhich (which i didn't eat)

just chilled down there with them for the rest of the hour.

Is it weird that I felt good when I was blacked out?  I liked the spinning feeling... it felt like it lasted a looong time....

If it hadn't been for Sarah and Amy walking down the hall and if Sarah hadn't caught me... I would have hit my head on the wall or the rail or the floor... or something...

Nobody knows WHY I passed out.... it was weird....

I kind of liked floating....

*weirdo* i know!

that is all

leave me some love... i need it

</3 marissa

I'll tell you what you want to hear...

So baby, tell me, what do you want me to say?

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--edit--

you all are slacking majorly on the comment thing...

*sigh

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